Not Much to Say

I haven't had much to say this week. Been kindof a sad week with my friend Anne's surgery and all. Been having some weird dreams, they're kindof cyclical....they seem to happen around Holidays and my kid's Birthdays. Humm, I seem to remember Phil's birthday is the 23rd. Sheesh, he'll be 33. Yes, the feelings of loss are still there. What with my sister having like 7 grandkids and 2 practically living there and my other closest brother is going to be a grandparent for the first time this Fall. Thinking about all the excitement of showers, knitting baby hats, wondering if it'll look like them. It reminds me that I have not experienced the full cycle of life as I would've. Yes, there are those that would say...you lucked out, not having teenagers under your roof, no college bills, didn't have to pay for a wedding or mess with all the harange and conflict that goes with it. And grandchildren, well they are noisy and spoiled. It's not all it's cracked up to be. I would've liked the opportunity to make my own observations.

Yep, there's still a certain meloncholy and feelings of loss I cope with. Is there still an undercurrent of anger? Yes, at times. But I try to deal with as soon as I recognize it, or try to catch myself in the process (sometimes I'm not successful at that). Like the other day, a guy jumped out of his car because I nicked his bumper with the fender of the van pulling out of a store. He said "what the F--- are you doing!!" Man, I yelled at him like I was out of my mind. "Don't yell at me you creepy disrespectful, punk". His bumper was fine and he drove away, squeeling his 80's Mustang tires. Jerk.

I also like to take things at the shop that have chips in them and smash them on the ground, laughing at all the broken pieces. It reminds me of what my life used to be like. And how God put it back together again. Good therapy.

I don't obsess about my kids like I used to. I try to "take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ" (IICor 10:5) and put a godly, thankful twist to it.

There, I guess I've said alot anyways. Whew, that feels better already.

Pork Roast with Peaches

Got a little creative today with a pork tenderloin roast in the crockpot. I put fresh rosemary from my garden and frozen peaches that I had done last week on top. Well, for me that's creative. Stuck a carrot and some onions in too. We'll have sweet potatoes and applesauce too.

I am loving peaches right now. The white ones are the bomb. Peach milkshakes, peach pancakes, what else can I make?

I stayed home from the shop today while Jack went in...it's not very busy on Mondays at all. He takes his laptop in and does his paperwork while he's sitting waiting for customers. I got to change my sheets, paint something in the yard, recover a cushion, list a couple things on Ebay, do errands, even stop and talked to a friend who just opened a new business in Lugoff called "Executive Secretary".

Tillie the dog chilled out last night after another dose of Benydryl, but there were NO post 4th of July fireworks in the neighboorhood last night, very strange. Maybe people didn't buy as many this year.

Don't know if you remember me talking about a cactus in my yard that is near the street. Some boys kicked it down the street a while ago. Well, it started growing again....it actually grew back about 6" this Spring. So, it got kicked again! It's broke off again and I am ticked. Why do people have to be so mean? I'm going to put a little fence around it if it starts to grow again.

Happy Independence and Dependence Day

Happy 4th of July. I hope we all celebrate our independence, which is so taken for granted and also our "dependence". What I mean by that is our dependence on God. We need Him in our lives desperately and hourly.
Let's never forget both.
Gotta go give Tillie some Benydryl so she won't shake when the fireworks start after dark.
We're gonna have a break in the heat next week, low 90's!

My Friend Anne

My friend Anne, our Sunday School teacher's wife just found out she has lymph, liver and some brain metastasis from breast cancer 2 years ago. She will start chemo and radiation soon. My heart cries out for her. She is one of the the sweetest, most sincere Jesus followers I've ever met. She is not depressed or upset at God, she is still reaching out and praying for others and is excited about sharing Jesus with the medical staff she encounters. She has a Caring Bridge site if any of you are interested in following it. I'm sure I will be writing more about this. It really strikes home for me. Please pray for Anne, her husband and 2 sons. Puts things in perspective real quick.

Facebook is Amazing

I just read on Facebook that one of Phil's old girlfriends Laura H. just had her first children...twins, a boy and a girl. She lives in D.C. also. Wow, it's amazing. I don't do all the contests and quizzes on Facebook, but I like to check in once in a while and see if something pops up.

Happy July Birthday to all my family people who have July Birthdays. I counted up today and including some friends, there are 15 birthdays.

How hot is it ?

At 10pm last night it was 91 deg.
It's 99 deg. in Camden today.
If you have a boat, you head to the beach around here.
I trimmed Tillie's face and ears and she now looks like a fuzzy, pinheaded dog.


Menu for today:
Grilled Greek burgers with Feta cheese and olives in them
Cold Tuna salad with spinach noodles
Homeade Zucchini cake with cream cheese frosting

Job Loss and Other Facts

Jack walked into the shop yesterday at 1pm. I looked at him and knew it had happened again, they had laid him off from his Temp. job. They said the orders hadn't picked up like they had anticipated...and he was the first one to go. When I looked at him, I kinda chuckled, like a crazy reaction, but it seems like after awhile you just get kindof numb to the whole thing,,,,so hey, bring it on. What else can they throw at us? Actually alot more.
I'm very thankful we're not facing major health issues right now, as some other friends we have are. My friend Anne, is facing Chemo and radiation from reoccurring breast cancer to her lymph's after having a double mastectomy last year. She's a beautiful lady, inside and out and trusts the Lord implicitly. What an inspiration.

I really want to turn off the TV right now and try to stay positive and focus on staying strong in the Word of God. Who wants to watch it right now anyways, with the 3-ring circus (Vintage expression courtesy of my brother-in-law Don...I might add- very appropropriate) going on with Michael Jackson's death. I have other things to think about. It makes me realize how the world will gravitate to the Anti-Christ. People around the world are weeping and wailing about it saying he was such a good person, he only slept next to "a few boys". Yea, prince MJ had unmatched talented, but he was a drug addicted weirdo. The anti-Christ will promise world peace and security and people will flock to him and be deluded in his sick lies.